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Psycho

4 February 2005

Ugh…  What a terrible way to begin a day.  I got caught half-waking from a dream this morning, I don’t even remember what the dream was, but it wasn’t particularly frightening or suspenseful as I recall.  But I couldn’t shake myself from the dream & couldn’t get my bearings in my room…  I was just fixated on the strip of light coming through the door, and I guess out of panic I almost screamed bloody murder.  I caught myself before actually doing so, but I’m sure I made a bit of noise.

I think I’m way too stressed out–not from my job, which fortunately I can usually leave at work & not bring home with me–but my mom’s and brother’s jobs and my aunt’s divorce.  Oh well…  Just driving me nuts, no big deal.  If I disappear for some great length of time, it’s a safe bet I’m sitting in a padded room somewhere.

Oh yeah…

4 February 2005

As I’ve been reminded that all of my entries of late have been so impersonal, I thought I should mention that I hang out with Danté last weekend.  Not a lot to mention–I seem to think we’ve done the “long time, no see” meeting several times now.  We pretty much drove around all night, took the obligatory trip to Cave Creek (though didn’t stay there long), listened to music, and talked about shit.  Lots of reminiscing about high school.  The Boss’s “Glory Days” lyrics came to mind, and that was mildly depressing.  Eh.

It would seem like we’ve got a bit more in common now than before…  Unfortunately, it’s because we’ve both grown complacent about relationships & what not.  I guess he’s sort of settled on living w/ Sarah even though they’re not really an item right now.  And me, I guess I’ve settled on hanging out, doing most things that I do w/ Kaleena.  (No offense, of course…  It’d just be productive for me to also pursue & do things with someone who isn’t married.  And yet I’m comfortable with that which I already know.)

One area of conversation I remember…  The Get Up Kids started playing on one of his CDs, which got us talking about girls & bad memories ruining favorite bands & songs for us.  This, of course, brought up Genelle, who just had to go and like The Eagles, which took me over a year to be able to listen to again.  (Still topping the list, I might add.)  He asked me if I had regrets about what happened with G–actually he assumed I did, because he’s still got a lot of issues about his first love, Courtney.  Nope, couldn’t say I did have any regrets.  Seems like things have turned out…  reasonably well, even if there were some individual moments when we could’ve handled things better.  But I read her journal entries (which I’m told I must read and not skim from now on…  heh) and hear her talk about Sjoerd and it’s easy to be happy for her.

But eh, regrets or not, maybe it doesn’t make a difference.  Seems like at this point, neither Danté nor myself can carry on a meaningful relationship with whoever we might attempt to try with.  (Whoever, indeed…  Hard to count missed opportunities when you shoot them down so quickly.)  And hey, Danté may have regrets but he also has much more sex than I do…  even still.  :-(  Ah, and again this has become yet another “Thom gets no play” entries.  There’s a certain nostalgia to this, isn’t there?

…and that’s probably a good point to go to bed.  ;-)

Synchronicity

4 February 2005

I’m listening to the “Party Shuffle” feature in iTunes, and after taking out undesirables (I’ve got some comedy tracks & free tracks mixed in) I noticed that Harry Nilsson’s “Everybody’s Talking” is immediately followed up by Paul Oakenfold’s “Starry Eyed Surprise”–which samples Nilsson’s song.

I’d like to think it’s some great big event for those songs to fall together like that, but I realize I deleted a Simpsons track that fell in between the two.  I guess it’d only be a 1 in 500 chance that they’d play together anyhow, maybe even more likely because they’re both five-star rated tracks.  Still cool, though.  ;-)