25 and Alive!
5 February 2007 | Posted in People, Personal, TrishI’m sorry, journal. I’ve been cheating on you. For the past four months, I’ve been pouring my heart out to someone else. No, not another jounal… Don’t get jealous. :P I’ve just been so wrapped up with Trish that I haven’t had a chance to come here and share the many, many great things to talk about. (And the few not-so-great things… meh.)
So, where to begin… Have I mentioned how amazing Trish is? Ah, she’s just amazing. We’re just so connected. Not only can we talk so freely & intimately about anything, but even more unusual, we can sit around and not talk at all and still feel perfectly comfortable. Bah, why am I trying to explain it? We’re soulmates, simple as that. I’m so crazy in love with her. :)
So, game of catch-up. First the bad news, and this is kinda out of left field. Kaleena and I aren’t talking. That’s happened a lot over the years, but usually it was a casual drifting apart. This time I don’t really feel comfortable reconciling. I thought she and Trish would get along well–I thought it was a great & purposeful fact that they actually knew each other first–before I fell for Trish–so that there wouldn’t be any weirdness. But I guess their personalities just clashed. Kaleena pulled a lot of spiteful crap last month, kinda underhanded too… Even if she tried to make amends, I’d worry about her just trying to get the drop on Trish somehow. :( Anyway, it doesn’t matter… I’m so very happy for the first time in a long time, and I want my friends to be happy for me. Kaleena just didn’t seem capable or inclined to do so. So I’m just not inclined to waste my time worrying about it.
Anyhow, on to the good stuff. Remember how I said Trish was planning to come visit in January? Well she did. And it was fabulous. We didn’t have nearly enough time together, but what we did was so spectacular. God, I can still remember seeing her at the airport. I knew exactly what she’d be wearing, who I was looking for, but I was still taken so completely aback. Blown away. Seeing her in person for the first time… sheesh, what good deeds did I do in a past life to deserve such an amazingly beautiful woman? It felt like I was standing there, me the schmuck I am, picking up some mystery person who turned out to be a movie star. So, so beautiful. She’s got such a great body too. She’s not convinced that she’s the most beautiful person I’ve ever been with or even liked, but she’s crazy. Crazy!
So! Make with the deets already, huh? She came on the Saturday the 13th. We had dinner with Kaleena & Amber that night (see the aforementioned spiteful behavior) which kinda put a damper on that first day, but not so much that we couldn’t enjoy ourselves later. Went back to the hotel… Jeez, I forget, did we watch a movie that night? We spent a lot of time in the hotel all week, playing games, watching movies, trying to watch movies but falling asleep… That much is sort of a blur. But we definitely did a lot of snuggling that night, and all nights. :D
The next day, I slept rather late because I’d been so sleep-deprived the week before. But once we got going, we went out to Goldfield–this old west ghost town outside of Mesa/AJ, the same one I was trying to write a screenplay about a few years ago. She (and I) really loved that show called Hey Dude that was on Nickelodeon when we were kids, and since I couldn’t fit in a trip to Old Tucson, I thought I should at least take her to some sort of old west attraction. It was fun. The town was rather busy so we didn’t mingle in the street long, but we picked her out a petting cactus, looked at a reptile & critter exhibit, and soaked in the atmosphere. We were going to go for a horse ride but ran out of time. Probably a good thing for my ass… I wouldn’t have wanted to be sore for the rest of the week. :P That night we went to my parents house, had dinner and played games. God, that was so amazing! My family loved her, and she hit it off so well with my family. It felt like she was already a part of the family, and she’s said things to the same effect. She was even graceful when I made her lose at Cranium. :( (She had been undefeated until then.)
The rest of the week felt so rushed, but we had fun. Went to meet my grandpa & Dot, had our “first date” on my birthday (Carrabba’s, and the service unfortunately stunk, but oh well), watched some movies. Went to the zoo, ate sushi!!! And actually wasn’t completely grossed out. In fact, what I thought would be the “safe” stuff–tuna, salmon–was bland to the point of being a bit sickening. The whitefish and the eel was terrific. And oh, watched some more movies. And got Trish drunk for the first time in here life. :D That was such a blast.
And just like that, the week was over. :( Next thing I knew, I was driving her to the airport again. Next thing I knew, I was watching her walk away from me, to where I couldn’t reach her, and when she left my sight I just paced the airport, unsure whether to go to my car and sulk, or run back to the gate in hopes that maybe I’d see her again. I don’t think I’ve ever felt so miserable in my life as I did that day, because we were so happy, and it felt like I was putting her on that plane, I was denying us our happiness. I know it’s just the way it had to be, but it felt so bad… I knew for sure that I had to get her back, and for good.
Which brings us to today. I just put in an application for an apartment. :) Trish has a one-way plane ticket bought for the end of March. She’s moving out here! It’s just so mind-boggling how my life is right now. A bit scary, because I’ve never done any of this before, but at the same time my life feels so right, it feels like everything is either in place or will soon be in place for life to be, as far as I’m concerned, perfect. :)
This may seem like a bit of a non-sequitor, but I just have to brag about myself a bit. O:-) I have nearly all of my credit card debt paid off. All that’s left is $1300 which I’ve transferred to a new card with 3.9% interest. This is down from about… $4500 as of six months ago. I’ve got my budget in order and have it worked out so that after rent, utilities, bills, food, and gas, I’ll have about $400 left over each month, plus $250 to savings. So half a paycheck free to save or spend or whatever. :) Plus I’ll have about $5000 saved up for move-in time, plenty to cover some of our basic furniture needs. It just feels great to be on top of my money at last. All I need to figure out now is how to pay down my car and my student loans. I’d really like to become debt-free, but that might be a while.
So, life is tremendously good… Anything else I could say here would just be a reiteration of that. :P Oh, thanks to everyone for the birthday wishes. I’m sorry I’ve been so flaky about keeping in touch, but hey, my head’s in the clouds… hehe. I’ll keep everybody updated.
Oh! To close, some pictures:
The lovebirds!
My Goddess at the Zoo
A Rare Species of Hornbill
Our only decent picture standing together. :P
If I get approved for the apartment, this will be my daily drive to work. 1.2 miles, about 2 1/2 minutes of driving.
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March 18th, 2007 at 6:10 PM
congratulations. i bet you don’t remember me, at all, but it really doesn’t matter. i’m glad you’re happy, and i stumbled upon this randomly.
-kimberly